What does depression actually feel like?
Depression shows up differently for different people. For some it is a heaviness that makes ordinary things feel effortful. For others it is a flatness, an absence of feeling rather than sadness, a sense that colour has gone out of things without being able to say exactly when.
Some people experience it as a background hum, always present, rarely named, quietly shaping ordinary decisions. Others find the flatness harder to explain than sadness would be.
What many people share is a sense that they’ve carried it for a long time, that they understand something about where it comes from, and that understanding alone hasn’t been enough to lift it.